Lisán Campbell

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Filed under: France | Tags: | October 21st, 2011

I love my French teacher. He’s so French… Read the rest of this entry »

I recently re-read the classic story of Siddhartha. When I read it in high school, I remember being quite disturbed by it. I didn’t know exactly why it upset me so. Maybe because he wound up alone in the end, even though he experienced enlightenment. Maybe I just couldn’t fathom being satisfied with the choices he made. I mean, I sure as hell didn’t want to make the same choices he did to achieve inner peace. Now I’ve revisited this man who lived thousands of years ago, and once again I’m disturbed but for different reasons.

He was an extremely bright young man who knew that there was more to the world than what he was being told by his Brahman father and society. He went off on his own to see for himself if he could figure things out. He purged himself from all comforts of life: warmth, rest, shelter, a full stomach, safety… all these things he denied himself and in the process learned that he was actually quite resilient, but still he didn’t find the answers he was seeking. He met a beautiful woman, went under the tutelage of a wealthy and savvy man who taught him everything he needed to know to become himself financially successful, but still he didn’t find the answers he was seeking. After many years of lavish living, disgusted with what he had become, one day he simply walked out of his opulent home, went through the gates of his town, and disappeared into the forest never to return to his now former life. He met an old man, a poor man who took donations for ferrying people across the river. Siddhartha found comfort and wisdom with this man who taught him how to listen to the river for cues on how to live in peace, in unity with everything around him. In the end, having learned once again to live without, including companionship, for the old ferryman passed away eventually, Siddhartha achieved enlightenment without the distractions of money, objects, people, utterly alone with his river.

How can we learn from this? What can we take away from this experience? We are pack animals. We need interaction with other beings. And even if a person wants to be alone, how does one do this on such an extreme level? Do we simply walk away from everything like Siddhartha did to disconnect ourselves from the roles in which we’ve found ourselves? Would Siddhartha have left if he’d known that his lover of many years was carrying his child, a fact he didn’t learn of until a decade later? Is it even remotely possible to attain enlightenment while remaining responsible to one’s duties–children, spouse, parents, professional colleagues? Is it really one or the other?

I’m reading A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. He claims that the dysfunction that makes us everything from dissatisfied to homicidal is our connection to our ego. He teaches that the things we identify with and become attached to, the roles we take on, the emotions that wreak havoc on our relationships, all this is to feed the ego. Once we can take a step back and realize that when we are affected by these things we are actually catering to the ego, then we can start to experience a freedom, a peace, from that which can cause so much chaos in our lives. But how does one do that? All my life, I’ve looked for roles that would fulfill me but haven’t been able to find them . On a bad day, when my children are being particularly ornery, I even question what the heck I’m doing as a mother. (Quite sure I’m not the only one!) Tolle is saying that we should be comfortable not boxing ourselves in to the constraints that a role creates, that we can relieve ourselves of the burdens and judgements that come naturally when we define ourselves and others according to the roles we have adopted for ourselves, and others for themselves.

In theory, this all sounds lovely, ideal really. Imagine a world where people could take a look at their emotions and step out of themselves for a moment to realize they are not serving themselves, but an evil twin by the name of Ego. There would be no war, certainly much less suffering. Consider what it would be like if people didn’t judge each other because they realized that, in the end, it all means nothing, that we are all on this earth to accomplish something greater than the BMW that is or isn’t in the garage. I’m feeling a John Lennon moment coming on.

But how? Some people claim that they look at themselves in a detached way and suddenly, they feel peaceful. Wow! Is it really that easy? Are they failing to mention that they spent the last ten years at ashrams in India meditating on their detachment? Did they forget to mention that they slipped LSD into their coffee that morning?

I jest, but really, I’ll still keep an open mind. I mean, what’s the harm? Maybe all this spiritual mumbo jumbo will keep my sanity a little more firmly intact, in which case my family will certainly appreciate the hoped-for by products of patience and understanding. If I reach for the stars and only get to the moon, that’s still progress.

Pining for the Caldera

Filed under: Europe | Tags: | September 13th, 2011

So I’m signing on to my blog for the first time since… a while, and I realize I haven’t written anything since May, since we left Santorini. We’ve done so much since then, but my beautiful Santorini that has the breathtaking views, the steps everywhere one turns that ensure I’ll get my exercise even if I’m feeling lazy, the delicious food that’s so good for me too… It wasn’t perfect. The kitchen was too small for long term cooking (I’m such a spoiled American!), and the bathroom was outside–less than comfortable when the wind kicks up and it’s 50 degrees outside. Still, something inspired me there, something brought me to life. I miss it so.

Caldera in the Cyclades

Filed under: Greece | Tags: | May 24th, 2011

Santorini is the most beautiful place I’ve visited. I’ve heard it told that the color of the water surrounding Greece and her islands is like no other on the planet. Photographs don’t do it justice. Different hues created by the varying depths of the valleys under the surface make it look like a water color study in blue. It’s the product of the violence that Mother Earth can sometimes inflict, wreaking cataclysmic destruction, but when the dust settles and the land heals, a garden of Eden is born.

Santorini, whose proper name is Thira, is the southern most member of a group of islands in the Aegean known as the Cyclades. It’s a tiny cluster of four islands made up of a crescent shaped ridge with three islands in its interior, remnants of a composite volcano, the largest and most destructive type where a magma chamber under the surface relieving pressure explodes and falls in on itself, creating an enormous bowl shaped structure called a caldera. Santorini is such a structure, its western portion collapsed allowing seawater to flow into the center. The result is a glorious combination of volcanic cliffs and brilliant blue sea. Rent a car for one day and you can circumnavigate it from one end to the other, fitting little excursions throughout the day and still have time to catch a glorious sunset at one of Ia’s many cafés on the Northern tip of the island.

We took a day to walk all the way to Ia (pronounced EE-ya), the upper third of the island, and the effort was spectacularly gratifying. Walking Northward, as the clusters of whitewashed hotels and villas fell away behind us, we were greeted by vibrant wildflowers framed by ancient volcanic stone walls, terraces that I imagine once held the bounty of past Grecian societies–perhaps Venetian or Turkish, being former occupiers of this bewitching crater–but that now nourish the seeds of dozens of wildflowers and whispers of bygone eras. We continued onward, passing desolate rocky cliff faces with nothing to grab onto if the unsteady gravel happened to give way under our feet. We climbed up narrow dirt paths lined by black stones that had fallen from the mountain above us, evidence of the once volatile movement of this island, to come around a bend and be almost tackled by the winds of the Aegean blasting over a ridge that afforded us a breathtaking view of both sides of the island. The only thing keeping us from staying for a while and taking it all in were the brutal winds. We continued on until we reached the leeward side of the ridge where we could rest from the beating we’d just taken. The rest of the trail was as magnificent, always changing, always challenging. Reaching Ia was a relief–we were tired, hungry, and had gone through our water. Still, I wanted to walk back, experience all of it again, be dazzled and inspired anew. But our wariness and our full bellies got the best of us, and we decided to take a taxi back to our little cave house.

We’re enjoying our stay here. Every evening we get a spectacular show of colors as the sun sinks behind Nisos Thirasia. When the light fades and night envelopes the sky, stars come out with a stark clarity. Morning comes and we are reminded of how incredibly lucky we are. To be here. To be able to move around the planet with such ease and see other landscapes, other seascapes, other miracles. To be reawakened by our senses.

Journey to the Aegean

Filed under: Greece | Tags: | May 23rd, 2011

It took a 2 hour car ride to the airport, an 8 hour red-eye to Madrid, a 3 hour flight to Athens, many failed attempts at sleeping, and all the waiting time in between, but we finally got to Greece. Up to this point, we’ve been fortunate enough to avoid the pain of jet-lag, traveling to places in time zones only an hour or two ahead of California. The 10 hour time difference knocked all of us for a loop. Despite efforts to acclimate quickly by not napping during the day, going to bed at a reasonable hour, eating meals at normal times, going out and getting moderate exercise during the day, it still took us a full week to stop waking in the middle of the night (even with the help of Melatonin) and not feeling dog tired the first half of every day. The first few mornings, it took everything bit of will power not miss breakfast at the hotel restaurant, trying not to show up with our clothes inside out. I can’t recall ever being so tired for so long.

I’d always heard that Athens, despite its glorious history, had become a congested and polluted city, unpleasant and not recommended to visit. Something changed that. In 2002, Athens was the host city for the Olympics, and the government took the opportunity to make some profound changes. To prepare, construction was completed at baffling speed and in unprecedented amounts for the country’s history. The clean up effort was immense. It’s obvious to me that those changes were taken to heart, because I did not encounter the pollution and congestion I heard about. Athens is a big city and, as such, has traffic. As an old city, it has narrow roads and tiny cars to navigate those roads. It still doesn’t come close to LA’s 405 freeway at rush-hour. The subway was impeccably clean, and some stations have art and replicas of ancient artifacts with historic information on display. I was impressed. The only thing that disappointed me was the city planners’ lack of foresight in handing out permits for what seems like an obsession to build 1970s themed apartment buildings, all with the same lack of character or unique design, street after street, block after block. We still had a good time, and we enjoyed the ruins. Even though we were warned of pick-pocketers, we were never bothered. Once again, I was reminded of how much I enjoy being in a big city.

We visited the Acropolis on our second day here. A stone structure that appears to have erupted out of the ground eons ago, it proudly displays the Parthenon, built as a temple to honor the goddess Athena. Accompanying the Parthenon are other temples to other gods, but the Parthenon is the crown jewel, and in its time it was the largest and most admired of all the temples on and surrounding the Acropolis. At night, we had the good fortune of dining just a short distance away so that we could admire it like an illuminated jewel on display for all to see. Even though it has taken its beatings through the passing of time, from nature’s sometimes violent movement, from thieves looting, from conquerors’ callous maneuvers in war, changes inherent in occupation– through all this, it has remained regal and stunning, still demonstrating the genius of its architects. Experts are still in awe of the way it was built. They have been rebuilding part of it to maintain structural integrity of what remains and to demonstrate, in part, how it looked before its demise. Those new additions, the white marble originally used, can be easily seen in subtle but visible contrast to the ruin itself, which has yellowed with time. They’ve done a remarkable job of filling in the gaps with care and precision. In studying the Parthenon, they discovered that not a single section of the columns (of what remains) matches another section, so reconstruction has required painstaking research. They also found that the shape of the columns, how each one tapers toward the roof, gives the impression of exaggerated height and a feeling of movement to the whole structure. Fascinating. We completed our visit with some quiet time for the kids to ponder what they were seeing and write down their thoughts. In doing so, my husband finally had the chance to fulfill his dream of studying the Acropolis while sitting at the steps of the Parthenon. It was almost like traveling back in time. I couldn’t help but imagine being in the same place 2,000 years ago, wearing a toga and sandals, holding scrolls under an arm, or bringing my offerings for the goddess.

A Brief Respite

Filed under: United States | Tags: | April 3rd, 2011

It’s April and my family and I have decided to stop in the States to visit with friends and family for a while. It’s very strange to go into a store or restaurant without needing to Spanish. We had lunch at a yummy place where the waiter was from Latin America (I didn’t ask where), and I couldn’t help myself, I had to order and chit-chat in Spanish. I suppose this is part of my Language Immersion Maintenance Program. Okay, I’ll go with it.

I’m going to use this few weeks to re-center: cleanse my body, get back into a diet that feels good, not just tastes good, get back into my exercise routine, visit dentists and doctors to make sure we’re all still healthy–a general tune-up. Admittedly, I’ve already been putting off the commencement of this grand plan for optimal health and well-being, so my husband has made me sit down to write and practice yoga. I love him.

Beyond BA

Filed under: Argentina | Tags: | April 2nd, 2011

I adore big city life. In our stay here, I’ve discovered this about myself and am surrendering to it. I enjoy sitting at a cafe and having café con leche and a medialuna… Read the rest of this entry »

Buenos Aires, Spanish, and the Tango

Filed under: Argentina | Tags: | March 24th, 2011

According to legend, the Tango was originally created to act out the relationship between a prostitute and her pimp… Read the rest of this entry »

Theatre of the Blind

Filed under: Argentina | Tags: | February 5th, 2011

The other night, my husband, the kids, and I went to “Teatro Ciego”. This eclectic theater experience revealed what it’s like, if only for a few short hours, to completely lack sight. After we were given an idea of what to expect, we were led into the banquet room. It was black, absolute darkness. We could not even see our hands in front of our faces. Looked after by blind waiters, we ate without utensils, and after having a good long time to explore the table, our plates, and each other’s perceptions, we were treated to a show of sound, smell, and vibration. All in Argentinean Spanish, the performers acted and sang what seemed to be scenarios in Buenos Aires of the 1920s. Something about the sounds of the cars and the way the actors said their lines made me think it was set in that period. Some of it was funny, some of it poignant. In one scene, I saw in my mind’s eye a cafe where an attractive woman walked in and flirtatiously began chatting with the barristo. Some obvious advances were made, along with a couple of slaps and a lot of giggling. In another scene, a man in a bakery/cafe is talking on the phone with someone who’s inquiring about their reservation, confirming that the chocolate pastries just came out of the oven; all the while, the smell of warm chocolate and freshly baked bread filled the room. Later, the sound of horse hooves and the smell of hay told the audience that the scene we were experiencing took place out in the country. Other scenes included the sounds of a baby crying, then cooing mixed with running water and the aroma of baby shampoo gently laced with dirty diapers; a woman wearing heeled shoes walking across the room, breaking out in song about María de Buenos Aires, veiled in the scent of perfume.

It was lovely to let my mind be led without the sense on which I so depend so completely. It was as though I was taken by the hand and led with my eyes closed. I noticed right away that I was so much more aware of the people around me. I could hear the woman at the table next to me along with her delighted and very animated reactions to her own experience. The whispers, the shoes brushing the floor, the questions being posed by other people, the laughter. I noticed the temperature of the room and its fluctuations as the evening progressed. At times, the air was still and stagnant, and at other moments-appropriate to the scene-the air moved and cooled. My younger son was scared throughout our stay in the theatre and wanted to be held closely. He’s a person who likes touch and communicates with it constantly, and in the darkness, with him on my lap I was even more aware of everything about him, the smell of his skin and hair, the moisture of his little palms, the weight of his body, the softness of his face against mine, all the intonations of his speech and warmth of his breath as he spoke softly and tentatively into my ear, the reminder of his youth as he clung to me in the dark. All of this, so intimate and so sharp, brought into focus my role as mother, comforter, protector. I was moved by the power of a small gesture, providing a lap to a child.

For me, the evening was intense on so many levels. Taking away one sense was like turning up the volume on all the others. I truly appreciate what it must be like for those without sight, and how intense it must be for them. I’m aware that being blind for a few hours is nothing like being permanently without sight, but to have some insight into how our minds fill in the blanks of our experience is wondrous. It’s like a living example of entropy, the mind doing everything it can to re-establish equilibrium. It also confirmed my gratitude for my own sight and the richness of what our eyes perceive.

La Ciudad Porteño (The Port City)

Filed under: Argentina | Tags: | January 25th, 2011

The elevator looks like something out of a ’20s gangster movie, with turn-of-the-century collapsible accordion doors through which a wickedly clear view of each floor is provided as we pass upward to our temporary home. Despite my older son’s disappointed reaction to staying in a big city, he couldn’t help but think this was really cool. Read the rest of this entry »